Monday, February 8, 2010

Who stole my January?

Yea yea, I know. I missed posting anything in January. Oh well, life goes on.

Now that I think about it that's exactly what happened....life. January was a busy ass month. Flipped the New Year, new decade, went on a cruise, moved to an awesome new place and basically stayed busy the whole month. My job has been hectic and unusually stressful not to mention moving for the first time with Melissa posed it's own set of challenges. We made it though in fine form though. Minimal headaches and only a small amount of hurt feelings but who in reality makes it through a move without lashing out once or twice? Exaclty.

My job has been weighing heavy on me too. Scheduling, catering, multiple Directors on my ass, my immediate boss being a downright idiot and a general feeling of emotional weight pushing me down. It's been tough to deal with and working out is the last thing I have been thinking of. My internal Feng Shui has been way off.

Am I making excuses? Possibly....maybe....it's debatable. Did I have opportunities to go? Sure did. Did I pass on them? Yup. Sometimes you have to let life get in the way in order to make progress towards a goal. Sometimes you cannot "force" things to happen the way you want them to. Trust me, I've tried. I tried in the Culinary industry. Tried my hardest to be the best cook in the kitchen, get noticed, have the best ideas, best work eithic, be faster than the others. Then I let go and let things happen as they were supposed to and now I'm not in the kitchen anymore hence being able to write this blog at 11am on a Monday.

All that shit brings me to the point of this particular entry: Let things happen as they must. How many times have you tried your damndest to make things work they way they were supposed to and they didn't and the end result was less than palatable?? It happens with working out. Remember me saying that we don't live the Biggest Loser lifestyle? This is what I meant. If life is getting in the way and your personal "schedule of comfort" is all fucked up then it is pointless to try and force yourself to endure the gym. Yea I know it goes against the grain of what everyone says but in my opinion in order to make the body healthy then the mind must be healthy as well.

Mental well being has been proven to be a huge factor in being healthy overall. Just look at any morbidly obese person who looks unhealthy and acts unhealthy. They look lost, depressesed, vapid facial expressions are the norm, thereis no ray of sunshine, nothing to look forward to and they carry their black cloud with them everywhere they go. Once again, take The Biggest Loser as a prime example. Those people are so down on themselves that their brain chemistry has changed to alter their thought patterns and emotional state of mind. They harbor guilt, depression, personal loss, low self esteem, lonliness and anger for things you and I can't imagine. They have eaten their emotions and gone back for seconds. All of this has changed them into people they don't want to be but have no idea how to change back because somewhere in the shuffle they lost their own identities.

So if you are still with me then let me try and wrap this in a nutshell: If your world turns upside down then relieve some of your mental stess and don't hang your gym time over your head. It can hurt you more than help you. Get focused, find your comfort pattern again and then get back in the gym. Just remember not to lose focus of your goals and what you want to achieve but at the same time keep in mind that mental health is just as important as physical health.